To be bodiless, to be no-body. I am one of a handful blessed with the experience, to know my consciousness free of the animal we inhabit. By being free of the senses, and the limited mind and awareness, I am with the body consciously. Through this I know what it is like to be truly human. The nerves system comes to resonance with the direct authentic pulsation from the Source -- Point Zero -- Pure Dimensionless Formless Potential. One's presence is no longer enslaved and clouded by animalistic impulses and instinct. To Be, To Stream in Surrenderance, the Will one with the creative Forces of the personless Self. The Will, one with the creative and expressive forces of Zero(note: cause/source of all values) -- true authenticity. The personal is but a mere reflection of one's clouded mind. The personal and emotional, is a reflection of one's ignorance towards his true Self.

None is in denial towards the authentic streams of creation. The Will is one, authenticity is one. Even the body is not anti-subtle. It is not anti-spiritual. Once one enters a conscious relation with his body, the body becomes a pure receiver of one's subtle -spiritual- being. The body's subtle properties awaken, and become an empowerment of the spiritual. The vibrational level we know as "matter", is heaven being reborn in itself. It is heaven extending it's blissful energies in a new creation. It is extending it's peace in a new reflection: Earth, Mankind. This creative, evolutionary process is still at hand. The creative thought which we experience as our daily lives, is still in a process of becoming resonant with it's silent, blissful, source. The creative powers of the dimensionless, personalless, formless, source are our authentic spirits. We are both the divine thoughts and the divine thinker. We are beyond both formless and form. We are the child of the Motherly receptive form, and the Fatherly empty consciousness. We are the genderless creative powers. We are the authentic colors that paint the whole on the universal canvas that is connected through Love. To know your source in the Colorless Light, the Formless Source, is to be constantly inspired, constantly blessed. It is to be authentic, without denying oneness. It is to Be, with peace so great, that death of even consciousness itself means no threat. One may die into the source, and be reborn once more. Re-enchanted with infinite potential. Access to all levels of life. His consciousness is not bound, nor identified with any form nor dimension. Even the subtle and spiritual, is truly but form. Even the spirit, is but a body for the formless Consciousness. The spirit is his thought on which is reflected, for it to eventually return to it's silent source.

We live in a world, where the mental presence of mankind has been wired with the animalisitc impulses. Thus they add values to their impulses and instincts. The need for a herd, becomes "social". The need to mate, becomes "love".

Once the mind has become empty, and full of Presence, one becomes free of these things. Yet one is left in a world where every system, both human-interactive-wise and economic-wise, is based on animalistic impulses that are empowered by a certain amount of consciousness/awareness (or lack there of, one could say). Thus what man deems evolution, is merely an extension of his primal needs and instincts. Yet has not or hardly evolved as a consciousness.

I write this, to reflect on a part ignorance on my part. To feel responsible for others their emotions and attachments. Thus feeling responsible for their personal illusions. One is at all times responsible for what he feels. Every feeling finds it's origin in one's own mental configuration. The external world can merely confront one with his configuration. One often projects this on the external world, instead of seeing it is merely a reflection. Or as an event that directs one's awareness towards one's own emotional issues and blockades (one's own lack of self awareness).

As this text began: to know myself free of form. Through this I understood the spirit that is my authenticity, is to enter into the body and become conscious within and through it. Where one is not aware, where one is not consciously present and connected with the body, the animal -- the human body, will take over. Thus one's conscious presence is shared with animalistic instinct and impulses. I have found that anatomically, the animalism expresses itself fromout the stomach area. And the conscious-spiritial connectivity expresses itself fromout the base of the spinal.

By not being conscious in the body, on a certain percent one leads a life of an animal, and for a certain amount one of a conscious being - depending on one's level of awareness. One's animalistic desire to survive, thusly attains the value of "attachment" and "greed". A need to mate, becomes "love". The need for interaction and confirmation -- needing for a herd, is deemed as "social". Identifying one's Self, equals to conceptualizing one's Self. This is equal to marking one's territory, as the animalstic instincts are reflected in the sectors of one's mind where one is not self aware. One's awareness identifies with what it sees as it beholds the animalistic deeds, needs and desires. The animal is defensive and aggressive, as it is a mortal creature. And thus one's identified state of mind responds hostile, fearful and defensive to all alien, non-resonating, forms of mind. For that which is not resonant with one's own experience of reality, which equals one's identity, has the power to change one's experience of reality. This making it a threat to the static maintainence -survival- of one's identity. Because one is identified with the bodily, animalistic patterns and instincts, a confrontation with a non-resonating mind(experience of reality) is a threat to the continuity of one's identity. One fears this, for the instinct experiences the death of identity as real as the death of the body. Thusly one fiercely defends his identity with the same energies and agression as one would in a life and death situation. As intellectual and educated a discussion may appear, it's still often but a primal essence which is fighting with opinions as it's clubs, critique as it's blades and convictions as it's spears. It are two minds being driven by instinct that are battling for their mental survival. Truth often does not really matter when one wants to be right. One is blinded from the truth when one's pride, dignity and identity are depending on it. Then one's experience of truth is a matter of survival, instead of a pure, non-personal and non-emotional connection with life. When one is seeking and researching with emotional values attached to it, one is not seeking for the truth. One is seeking to be right. One is merely manifesting one's animalism. One is merely extending his survival instinct in his research. This filters one's mind, creating a tunnel vision. When one's research is based on emotional values and motivations, the truth is often unwelcome. Emotional attachment to believed-to-be-facts, does not prosper evolution and understanding. Any negative emotion reveals the fact that one is being confronted with his own lack of awareness. It shows one's defensiveness and attachment towards one's illusion, and his mind that has identified with it.


When one knows himself free of the human animal, and engages a conscious connectivity with his body, one becomes free of the animalistic properties. One becomes a universal Earthling. One is no-longer social. One's mind is empty and clear. There are no thoughts, and one feels no need to speak. Communication through sound is primitive. One is aware of his peers through a subtle awareness. All though one will find that sound and the latterly named "subtle" are both merely vibration. Merely that the "subtle" contains information beyond any veiled/identified-minded understanding.

There is no-longer a need to be social. There is no need to speak. Your being transforms in every way. Your mind is so different from the general population, that it takes a very clear, selfaware and concentrated mind to not give one's true self and state up for others. Of course such a process is only due to one is still attached to illusion. And in this process I currently am. To allow my true state, and see how I leave my environment in their emotional struggle? For in my true presence, I am non-emotional. I experience sensations which are not phrasable. The emotions my environment experiences, are still based on their fleshly-veiled-state of consciousness, it are their own illusions. They believe they need others to make them happy and content. Only where one is not self aware, one believes to need external elements for his happiness and fulfillment. For one's true Self, is an eternal source of blissful, creative, consciousness. It is completeness itself. It is one with the source of all things and phenomenon. It is a blissful embodiment of infinite potential, intelligence and creativity. It surpasses all individualized and dimensional understanding, as it is the creator itself of these things. There is no "need" for others. One is One. On Earth we seek each other and events out through karmic -magnetic- connectivity. When one's (self)awareness is not complete, one becomes negatively charged and attracts certain events and encounters to himself that reflect his ignorance -- his karma. One may believe that karma is a system of righteousness, as in answering a bad deed with a bad deed. However, a bad deed is only possible where one is not self aware. A conscious being would never express negativity nor manifest suffering. Thusly one is confronted, mirrored, with an event that complements one's negative expressions and values. Not out of punishment, but out of confronting one's mind with his ignorance. Creating an opportunity for cultivating and awakening of one's awareness. This cycle continues reincarnation after reincarnation, until one's authentic spirit becomes fully awoken within the body. And thus the body will become resonating with the spiritual energies, and "heaven" will be extended. Heaven will have evolved. There will always be suffering on the world, as long mankind has not become aware of it's source and his authentic current, his authentic soul. For only in that awareness we realize and experience we are complete. To be disconnected from that awareness, one will project his duality on the external world. Others will be blamed for what one feels. And feelings of vengeance and the desire to harm each other are unavoidable. Thusly I say that true punishment for bad deeds, are not to reply with administering suffering, but through education of the mind. For only in lack of awareness, one can manifest and project suffering upon other entities. Of course feeling the need for "punishment", is on itself one's own illusion. Such feelings can only manifest themselves in a mind that embodies lack of awareness.

Thus the spirit that is yet to become conscious in the body, is a spirit that often can not take responsibility for his own experiences and emotions. He does not understand the source of all his feelings are only within himself. The absence of absolute bliss and indisturbable peace only exist in one's own absence of selfawareness. This is why I leave my environment. My body is by many still considered young, 21. And it still lives with it's parents. I have already let go of human connections that are based on a low awareness (friends). Adjusting myself to their level of awareness brings for tremendous amounts of suffering, for it requires me to disconnect from my completeness in order to show even the slightest forms they uphold. Social is for the animal, not for the conscious spirit. It has no such needs. It connects to life through an overflowing bliss, united by universal Love. Oneness is it's basis, not something it "needs". Lack of recognition towards this, makes one crave inevitably for external elements to fulfill one's empty holes. Yet none will fill, for one has always been complete. There for only self awareness can cure emotional suffering. This is not understood by my home. One believes that they need each other to be happy. They believe they need my presence, contact and connection to feel fulfilled. They believe it is "Love" that wants to regulate and safeguard me. This is untrue. Love just loves. "Love" is the parameter, it is the receptor in the individualized awareness, through which we may recognize our basis. It is through the sensation of "Love" that we find our way back to the Source, the selfless essence of authenticity. It is the sensation through which we navigate our most primal desire to reunite in oneness with the source. Note that this is a factor in our sexual desires. We call sexual desires "love", in the sense that we want to become one with each other. This is due to the karmic/magnetic/mental properties that complement each other, and will create an electro magnetic field in which both involved minds will come to greater self awareness, prospering one's evolution towards total awakening within the human. Of course this goes for any form of karmic relationship.

At home they believe it is such love, not exactly sexual love -but close-, that makes them want to bind me. They believe it is love that makes them feel unhappy and emotional when something harmful will overcome my body. This is untrue. It is the animalistic desire to further the herd/family. Because they think they are their body, they believe if I die, part of them dies. While we are all immortal spirits, and share a common essence at all times. I can never fade from their lives, just from their illusioned, barricaded, awareness. It is merely that unawareness that makes them suffer. Not something I do, or don't do. Not only family-wise, but also in general life, so many protocols are lived. So many expectations, and forms of communication. They are all based on unawareness. When one does not complement the patterns based on this awareness, many will feel disrespected. Imagine being with a being that does simply not reply to your words. One would feel ignored and socially mistreated. Imagine that I would not feel for your emotionality at all. They are your chains, they are your attachments. I feel for you, not your emotions. Yet common man desires an equal response to what he is broadcasting. For that empowers the energy he operates on, so his ego may strengthen itself. Yet one whom is awoken is not responsive on his level, and perhaps not responsive at all. The broadcasting, and attention/energy claiming being would fall harshly back on himself. He would be strongly confronted with his own illusions, and he would feel attacked and uncomfortable in many ways. The message his animal-identified-mind receives, is that I do not support it's survival. It will try to convince me to be part of it's herd by wanting me to join and complement the energies he is radiating. By not participating in this animalisitc play, one's awareness/instinct would register me as a potential threat to his survival. Thus I am not classified as a "friend".

All the needs of my environment are based on an awareness on which I do not authentically operate. This is not a social matter in the sense of one's sexuality or sexual identity. This is not a matter of choosing your friends, a school or a profession. This is a matter of distancing yourself from the awareness on which most of the world is operating. This is a matter of renouncing the system. This is a matter of choosing to fulfill my human destiny, or to give in to the illusions people desire of me, themselves and each other. This is a matter of no-longer answering up to people's emotional system. This is a matter of no-longer giving in to any form of mind, or any dimensional identification. Understand me well, this is not a sensation of superiority nor inferiority. It is a simple recognition towards my essence. There is no middle way possible if you deny your authentic current. For it is the authentic current in which all things unite in oneness. It is in the authentic current in which both the negative and the positive become obsolete. You ARE the middle way. To deny authenticity, is to deny one's way out of suffering. To deny authenticity, is to deny the unnameable gift of life. To deny authenticity, one denies true connectivity and oneness with life and all it's lifeforms. Authenticity is true connectivity. The social is but a barrier founded on ignorance that keep our authentic awareness separated from truly meeting and connecting with eachother. By conforming my authentic current to the unaware state of mind others may have, is not only to deny my own fulfillment and absolute happiness, but also the one's I'm conforming myself to. By conforming myself to others, I empower the illusion that they need another to make them happy. By taking responsibility for their emotions, they will never learn that they and only they are responsible for what they feel. By taking their state of mind and feelings on my shoulders, they will never learn that they are an unshakable blissful current that is always content. Thus I would take away their power. I would take away their option to navigate through life as they see fit.

I have taken other people's state of being on my shoulders since I was a young boy. For I felt I was a confronting presence in my authenticity. Much low and negatively charged energies where projected towards my sensitive and receptive being. It hurt allot. My entire environment was radiating unwelcomeness. I felt my presence touched so much stagnations and blockades, that one often barricaded oneself from my presence. All the ignorant and negative treatment I received, made me conform myself. The bliss I knew, became the amount of depression and guilt. My Love and tenderness was something to be ashamed of. One should be brutal, rebellious, ambitious, tough and indifferent -- the properties a wounded animal would need to survive, and something our society deems a man that is to be looked up to. For so long, many many years, have I suppressed my blissful, authentic energies and self/awareness out of protection and compassion for those whom felt threatened by it. But no-longer. I can not do it anymore. The suffering is to severe. And I am not helping another nor myself. My hesitation lies within the fact that those whom are emotionally attached to me, will not understand. I am leaving to India for this, to remove myself from those whom I compassionately protect from their own inner demons, which a non-resonating(equals: confronting) presence will awake within them. They insist I write and call. They do not understand that an awoken one does not write nor call to fulfill the needs that find their origin in illusion. It does not communicate on their level. They're asking me to participate in patterns that are the opposite of my authentic awareness. I do not experience thoughts nor words. My mind is interconnected with the universe. There is one consciousness, and many individual expressions of awareness of this consciousness. I communicate like the spirits do. Without words, without language. You just know. You're simply aware. As there are two unique arms, yet you are aware of both. You know what is felt in either one, yet they are both individual arms.

The process which I go through, is the same one when one is dying. You're entering a new realm of awareness and existence. Conscious-wise, you're leaving people behind. And all will have to let you go, and you must let them go. If you remain attached to this level, and all that resonates with it, one is unable to move on in his evolution. One would remain in duality, one would become a hungering mind. A ghost that can not move on, and will be stuck between two worlds*. In such a world, I exist. No-one is allowing me to move on, many remain attached to the way they know me. But I must die, and be reborn in the same body. From a personal being, I will become a universal being. It is a process all human-bound-spirits must eventually go through. It is our destiny to awaken within the flesh, and awaken the body's subtle potentials and organs. Such will be a conscious extension of the Source: Creating beings.

Yet, I am unable to move on. I worry for the well being of those that I leave behind. Will they eventually understand? I have tried to explain this to them many times. They claim to understand, and show acceptance. But they only accept the words. They accept it as a believe. It is not a believe. It is actual experience. It is who I am. And I will suffer my entire life, if I am not to allow the being that I am. To be authentic, is to be resonant with the Source. To be authentic, is to be your divine potential. To be authentic, is to naturally live your most sacred and rewarding destiny. To be authentic, is to not-suffer. Man will suffer incarnation after incarnation, until he will become self aware. For his authenticity is his connection to the truth. His authenticity is his path to the selfless source, to the selfless state in which the nature of all things are unveiled. Suffering can not end without allowing your authentic awareness to exist.

This is my dilemma. I am doing no-one a favor by being unfaithful towards authenticity. For authenticity is the voice of "God**". You are his word. Without knowing yourself, without self awareness, one will always be separated from his essence and the source of all things. You are the ink with which the truth is written. Read your authentic self, to return to the peaceful mind of the writer. For as merely a word, one can not read the whole book. To be authentic, is also to be no-one. The issue is, is that I understand this. They will not. They may know what I mean, as they read this text, but will not have realized. They will suffer, and I am the one whom will have it set in motion. All though it is all of our karma connecting us, I can not help but feel unrightfully responsible for their feelings. Yet, wisdom shows me that I am not. One does not serve the mind of man, by accommodating to it's illusion. One serves life by living truthfully and authentic. One serves life, by being one's true Self, even when mankind believes you are acting against them on some level. It is their spirit that benefits, not the emotional mind that has identified with it's unawareness and the bodily patterns which reign in the darkness(absence of awareness) of his mind. I ask to see things clearly, and to be redeemed of my own emotional illusions, so that I may do the right and most compassionate thing: to give this world my authentic Self.


Namaste,

Jop den Daas
Moonflower Monk


* "...stuck in two worlds:" It is the lack of awareness in mankind, through the veiled state of bodiness, that one deems there are "two" worlds. There is in essence no "spirituality" and no "earthliness". These terms are the rotten fruit of ignorance. There is only life. The conscious-wise separation merely created the illusion of a spiritual and earthly existence.

Know that our science is merely an extension of our awareness. And most of man is but aware through his animalistic senses. Our scientific tools are but an extension of these. If man had no eyes, and merely ears, science would deny visibility would exist. For they would only have devices extending their ears. I feel it is unwise to depend one's life and openness towards it on scientific awareness.

** God: Not to be taken in a common religious manner. I am referring to the cause of all things. I am referring to the Source. I am referring to that which is consciousness itself - and we are an individual awareness there of. It holds infinite potential which it manifests in an infinite possibility of ways of existence, dimensions and lifeforms. It on itself is nameless, it is formless, it has no dimensions on it's own. It can not be named, it can not be thought about. In a sense one could say, that our authenticities are it's thoughts, but are not the thinker. We are all this one consciousness, reflecting ourselves through individual creations which are to become conscious of it's origin. It is the thought we are reflecting upon. Once such an authentic creation becomes self aware, it is God-realized. It holds all my potential. It is a creator on it's own, it is my gift. He exists as my reflection. He is my reality and manifestation. To say that man is created in God's image, is truthful. We are creators, we are equal to the source. We ARE the source. There for any phrase I may use that inquires a duality, as in "I and the Source", should be seen as mere symbolism. There is no relation with the truth. The truth and what I truly am, are ONE. Form, time and space are merely used to make this conceptless consciousness accessible.